For years I've battled with my weight, been made to feel like I'm fat instead of beautiful. Now I wish I could go back to when I first thought I was 'fat'.
When you have a baby, your body changes, you house a child for 9 months- the female body is incredible, but you forget. You forget that you're creating and cooking a human and that things need to adapt to make that happen. I struggled with endometriosis for years and was told I'd never be able to give birth to a baby as my womb wasn't strong enough to hold a baby full term. I've had babies miscarry and be taken away from me due to growing in the wrong place, but I never thought I'd hate my body as much as I do now, after having the baby I've always wanted.
I have always been curvy, with a great figure really. Some of my past photos are like, 'wow, she's a babe!!' So, why can't I see that now? Why can't I accept that things change and that's ok? Pressure - pressure to be perfect! The perfect mum, the perfect mum boss, the perfect body, the perfect post baby snap back... it's ridiculous!!
I can't stand clothes shopping as all the sizes are different. Shopping before a baby was enjoyable but after? It's like trying to dress a stranger with five arms and a potato sack for a body! It's embarrassing, it's uncomfortable and it's depressing! Many a time I've cried in the changing room and felt worthless and ugly! But the size on the label really shouldn't matter! What matters is how you feel when it's on. And if you need that bigger size, so what?! One thing I'm learning is that you can go to H&M and be one size, but go to New Look and you fit something different, In Marks & Spencer I need the size with the boob space so perhaps I need the "curve" fit? Nope, it's too baggy on my waist! Many a time I've tried on all my clothes and then thrown my pjs back on and felt I was the size of the Titanic as nothing fitted properly. Especially across my chest! Yup them boobs!! The ones I always wanted and now can't stand! Funny that! I mean they are great, but there are times I'd like to wear that little thin top and can't because they would bounce around like two balls on a trampoline - and that's really not a good look!
Just make time for YOU and in the end YOU will be the one willing to make some changes. It might just be that late night family walk, walking to the shops instead of driving, one less take away or even less wine ... ok, now I'm joking with the last part, c'mon!!
Seriously though.... look after YOU and you will be able to do many, many things!! Just remember ladies ... you grow humans, you make milk and you bleed for 7 days without dying! I'd say that's a super power, wouldn't you?